An Instant, A Flower, A Surf

I have a life-long pattern that I am in the process of breaking.
What I used to do was this Do-not-do-this-at-home-or-anywhere-else Process:
- Begin thinking positive thoughts about my life or about something I want.
- Get antsy and impatient when, after a few days, nothing changes.
- When something negative happens, put all my attention on the negative event.
- Lament the fact that positive thinking and the law of attraction “doesn’t work.”
- Feel really, really bad.
- Say, “See? I was right” when more bad stuff comes my way.
I can vehemently say that this process creates nothing worth talking about.
So lately I’ve been getting better at hanging out in the Vortex. I am continually reminding myself to ride the rapids. I am doing whatever it takes to feel good.
I keep reaching for thoughts that help me feel successful and financially secure.
I keep saying to myself, ” Who cares what my outer reality is doing?” And I’m not going to talk about that.
I am not going to get in that old pattern again. So I’ve been actively looking for thoughts that remind me that what I desire is fully developed on the energetic level and just because I don’t see it yet doesn’t mean it isn’t real. The law of attraction has provided me with not only a helpful thought but also with a couple of experiential illustrations to create these knowing expectation thoughts I want.
The “In An Instant” Thought
One of the thoughts that came to me right way was that life can transform HUGELY in an instant. One puny little second of this or that falling into place, and everything is suddenly different.
In 1999, I woke up with this funky little idea—what if we lived in a universe where fat was beautiful? And that moment turned into my first published novel, Alternate Beauty.
In 2000, I sent a simple little e-mail to a guy I knew in high school. That moment turned into my marriage.
In 2008, I headed down a short, shallow flight of stairs, and in an instant of falling, my ankles were utterly transformed (and not in a good way).
Life can zig faster than we can say zag.
Lingering beneath the surface of what we see now can be the blossom of all we desire.
The Vortex Flower
Last summer, I put dianthus flowers in planters on my back deck. In the fall, I yanked them all out. This spring, I didn’t put anything in the planters because our budget has no room for flowers. A month ago, the weed infested dirt in the planters depressed me.
Then I got in the Vortex, and I didn’t even notice the planters.
A couple days ago, while I was outside playing with Ducky, I happened to glance at the planters. And how about that? A single dianthus bloom had emerged from the scraggly barrenness.

If you’d asked me a month ago if I thought the annual flower might bloom from soil that had received no care of any kind, I would have thought you were as crazy as many think Tim is for knowing that a lottery win is going to pop up from his personal soil. But here it is.
We can’t see what’s just below the surface of our physical reality.
We don’t know what’s just outside our door.
We don’t know what the next instant will bring us.
But we MUST know that if we don’t stay in the Vortex, we’ll never discover what great things are about to burst into our lives.
Allowing High Tide
Yesterday, Ducky spotted a piece of driftwood bobbing in the surf. She wanted it, but even though she could swim to it, the surf was rough, and her Momma (i.e. me) was telling her to “come.”
Ducky decided she didn’t need that driftwood after all, but it got me thinking about the way most of us have surf-like vibrations that ebb and flow. We want the driftwood, but we can’t exert enough effort to get to it. We must allow that driftwood to come in and settle on the sand. We must wait for high tide.
Everything that each of us has asked for is floating in a surf that’s eager to surge in on our shores. But most of us don’t stay on the beach (in the Vortex) long enough to let that surf come in.
Every time we turn toward disappointment or complaint or frustration or fear or anger or any other negative emotion, we leave the beach. We walk away from the prize bobbing on the water’s surface.
Our work is to hang out in the Vortex long enough for all we desire to settle at our feet. And that has become my full-time job.
I am so grateful to a cooperative universe that, by law of attraction, brought me these thoughts. They’ve helped me settle into my virtual reality. I hope they’ve reminded you to hang out on the virtual beach too.



June 29th, 2010 at 11:58 am
Beautifully stated, as always, Ande.
Love that dianthus. What a great reminder that wondrous things await us, just beneath the surface. Yep, it’s so worth it to spend plenty of time on the beaches of the Vortex. Why on earth would we want to be anywhere else?
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June 29th, 2010 at 11:59 am
This is a beautiful post and a fabulous reminder to me that what I want is there and all I have to do is stop looking for it constantly. I really needed this today, Thankyou.
June 29th, 2010 at 12:11 pm
Lol – I shall be on the beach with you! And the irony of that for me is that WHATEVER happens, nothing or something, the beach is a better place to hang out! It makes you wonder why we ever leave the beach – it’s beautiful, relaxed, fun, all we need is there. But there we are, leaving the beach, hanging out in less salubrious surroundings. The non-physical must look at us and think ‘nuts’! x
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June 29th, 2010 at 12:12 pm
That’s as in ‘they are nuts’! x
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June 29th, 2010 at 12:23 pm
Thanks, Karen. Why indeed?
June 29th, 2010 at 12:25 pm
You want to know something funny, Susan? I wrote this post last week and scheduled ahead because I’ve been working on a manuscript this week, and I wanted to do it without interruption. The last couple days, I’ve “left the beach”, and when this post landed in my inbox (of course I subscribe to my own blog
), I read it to remind myself of what I’d written, and wow, was it something I needed!
I think we need to hear this kind of thing over and over and over, so I’ll keep finding ways to say it.
June 29th, 2010 at 12:26 pm
It sure is a better place. Both figuratively and literally.
June 30th, 2010 at 7:57 am
Now you are on it Ande. Get in Vortex and then leave the results to God, Universe… Cast your bread upon the waters and in many days it shall return to you…
June 30th, 2010 at 8:59 am
What a great post–love the idea of staying on the beach. Most of my pressure over the last few years has come from trying to find the “right” job. I’ve been through several–most of which paid pretty darn well. The problem was that I kept wanting them to be what I held in my vision rather than what they were. If I could have been “on the beach,” perhaps I would still be in one of those high paying jobs. Of course, now I need to stay “on the beach” to ensure that the one I currently have ultimately falls into the visions that I’ve created around it. It’s so much easier to “get easy” with it now that I understand a bit more about the Universe. Thanks, Ande, for your friendship and for helping me to better understand the world inwhich we live.
June 30th, 2010 at 4:01 pm
Thanks, Nancy. Your jobs are like my manuscripts. I get them and then I leave the beach when they don’t sell when and how I thought they would. So we’ll hang out on the beach together … shouldn’t be a problem considering where we live.
June 30th, 2010 at 10:31 pm
I like this post. Glad you are doing well and really get that from reading this entry. Doing the happy dance with you
July 1st, 2010 at 5:13 am
Love hanging on the beach with you Ande. Your posts are my favorite!
July 1st, 2010 at 10:36 am
Thanks, Grace! I love the company on the beach.
July 1st, 2010 at 10:37 am
Thanks, Jan! Love the company here on the beach.