The Secret Is Wags

Lately, I’ve had to turn this into a mantra:  “The feeling, the feeling, the feeling.  Focus on the feeling.”

When you’re finding reasons to feel good or looking for ways to feel like you already have what you want, either by using track changes or other visualizing methods, it’s ever so tempting to look for results.

We all love law of attraction results.  We love to hear those stories about how someone thought about something incredible and got it.  And of course, we all love to experience those results.

Almost daily, I remind myself that I manifested my husband.  I like remembering that I have the ability to deliberately flow vibrational energy toward a specific result and have the result appear in my life.

I’m discovering, however, because of a spate of unpleasant events recently, that too much focus on results can knock you off the alignment track. 

Week before last, Tim’s adoptive mother died (he was taken from his biological mother’s care, for reasons of neglect, when he was barely 2 years old).  Tim’s mother’s death wasn’t cause for grieving, in and of itself.  She had Alzheimer’s and had been unaware of the people in her life for some time; Tim and I both knew that she had moved on to pure positive energy, and for that, we were grateful. However, her death triggered feelings about an even greater loss for Tim—the loss of his childhood memories.  His head injury wiped out all memory of his parents and his history.  He doesn’t remember his mother at all. By the time he talked to her after his head injury, she didn’t remember him.  Her death brought up that loss for him.

I don’t think anyone who hasn’t been stripped of his past could understand what Tim has experienced.  We speak of it blithely, but being almost 50 years old with only 4 years of memories isn’t a picnic.

Still, Tim and I understand alignment, so after we got word of her death, we immediately set to work to move up the emotional scale.  I told him all the stories about his mother that I could remember him telling me before his head injury.  I told him that when we visited his parents six years ago, his mother repeatedly said (the Alzheimer’s was advanced even then), “Tim will always be my little boy.”  She loved him SO much, and Tim and I talked about that.

He felt better.  I felt better.

Then the big winds came.  We generally get high winds and rain October through March here on the coast … never in May.  But a big storm blew in the night Tim’s mother died.

We live on a heavily wooded half acre.  In the fourteen years I’ve been here, I’ve never lost a tree.  Trees get blown down in this area all the time, but not my trees.  I LOVE my trees.  I know they’re fine.  I am quite secure about my trees.

Even so, one on the most sheltered side of the house snapped in half the night Tim’s mother died, and the top fell into another tree and uprooted it, tipping the second tree precariously into others.

I was shocked.  I have PERFECT TREE ALIGNMENT.  How could that happen?

I took a breath and said, “At least they fell away from the house.”

And we called a tree removal service.  They said it would cost $850 to take the tipped tree down.  They might as well have said $8.5 million.

Using a hack saw and elbow grease, Tim cut up the top half of the tree that fell and now we’re just intending for the leaning tree to stay where it is.

The next day, a narrow rift appeared in the middle of my laptop screen.  I told myself it was just a little line.  It would be fine.

By the end of the day, it was a three inch rift. The next day, we had to drive 1 ½ hours each way to the nearest UPS store to send the computer back to the manufacturer for repair.

“Well, at least it’s under warranty,” I said.  And when my mother offered to let me use her laptop until mine was returned to me, I said, “Well, at least I have a computer to use in the meantime.”  And I said, “At least Tim had just backed up all my files.”

We were a bit buffeted at this point, but Tim and I reminded each other that the small stuff matters, and we kept appreciating and clicking, and we also talked about the trips we’ll take when we get the RV we want.

Then Thursday evening, the doorbell rang.  A process server handed us papers.  One of the credit card companies we owe money to is suing us.

I sat down and cried.

Tim said, “We’re fine.”

He was unmoved by recent events.  He knew they didn’t have anything to do with where we were going.  He still felt rich.  He still felt happy.

I, on the other hand, was pissed.

How can stuff like this happen when we spend so much time focusing on feeling good?

And that’s when I started chanting, “The feeling, the feeling, the feeling.”

I remembered this Abraham-Hicks quote: “If you are predominantly focused on the RESULTS of your focused thoughts rather then FEELING your way within your thoughts, it is easy to lose your way.”

And this quote:

“We want YOU to be the reason you go into your vortex. And we want the reason to be because: It feels good. And I can.  … Every good feeling you have is for one reason and one reason only: You lined up with You just now.”

I knew that if I sat there and thought about the lousy results I was seeing in my life, my emotions about those results would flow like a line of falling dominoes and take me right to the bottom of the emotional scale and stay there.  I knew that I had to find reasons to feel good just for the sake of feeling good.

For right now, I can’t let myself think about the results I want in my life.  I can’t think about the money.  I have too much negative vibration on that subject because of the things that have been happening.

I need to just think about feeling good for feeling good’s sake.

I need to play with my pup.  I need to take long baths.  I need to remember how much my husband loves me.

It’s been three days since the process server came.  I don’t know yet what’s going to happen with that.  But I feel okay.

I’ve savored the sound of the rain on the roof, and I’ve laughed with friends.  I’ve inhaled one of my favorite scents, that happy-doggy-playing smell that dogs’ fur gets after they’ve been playing outside.  I’ve spent a lot of time with my eyes closed, using track changes revision to remember the last year as I wanted it to be.

And I keep chanting, “The feeling, the feeling, the feeling.”

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