Why Not Feel Good?
Friday, March 12th, 2010In Money, and the Law of Attraction—Learning to Attract Wealth, Health & Happiness, Jerry Hicks says that he often hears people talk about wanting to win a lottery. Abraham’s response to this is, “If their expectation were in a place that would allow it, then that could be a way for money to come to them. But most know the odds against that, and so their expectation for winning the lottery is not in a powerful place….”
For two and half years, Tim has been more than expecting to win a lottery. He KNOWS he will. He has an absolutely unshakable knowing that he has a big lottery win in his vibrational escrow.
When people mention the odds to him, he looks at them calmly and says, “The odds are irrelevant. It’s about my vibrational alignment.”
Throughout the last few months when I’ve been steadfastly putting my attention on what I don’t want (to run out of money), Tim has been calmly, contentedly going through his days acting as relaxed as a person with all the money he needs in the bank.
Yes, he gets annoyed from time to time. He gets caught up in the what is of little things like computer problems or broken household appliances or Ducky’s enthusiastic, mischievous puppyhood. But most of the time, he’s cool.
So am I happy about him being happy?
Why wouldn’t I be?
Well …..
I have this little problem with his happiness.
I’ve been gnawing at this problem for several months now. It doesn’t taste very good.
My problem is this:
If Tim KNOWS he’s going to win a big lottery and he feels good, isn’t he in the Vortex, aligned with his nonphysical self? And if he is in the Vortex, aligned with his nonphysical self, how did he manage to manifest all of our debt and our financial mess?
It makes no sense to me that someone who feels like a rich lottery winner would be attracting what he’s attracted.
Drives me nuts.
Whenever I start finding a feel good place, reaching for thoughts that make me feel better and better and better, this one nagging thought careens through my good thoughts, blasting them aside like a heavy bowling ball plowing into the pins: “But if feeling good is how you bring your desires into your life, why isn’t Tim closer to what he wants?”
Every week or two, I ask him, “Are you SURE you feel as good as you say you do?”
My wonderful husband … he heaves a little sigh, just to acknowledge that we’ve been here before and he doesn’t like it here very much, and he says, “I’m sure.”
“But if you feel so good, why are we rich?” I fling at him.
“I feel rich,” he says. “And our riches are coming.”
Yes, I do see what I’m doing. I’m taking stock of where we are, which is what Abraham-Hicks says NOT to do.
But … they also say that you can tell how aligned you are by what’s coming into your life.
I’m baffled by what seems to me to be a contradiction. Aren’t you taking stock when you notice what’s coming into your life (or not coming)?
So last night, I was bugging Tim with our bi-weekly “Are you sure…” conversation, and this thought popped into my head: “I haven’t stuck with tenaciously finding reasons to feel good because I harbor doubts that doing so will bring what I desire into my life. How silly is that? Why not tenaciously feel good just because it feels good and see what happens? Why not ignore what Tim is doing (I’ve resolved to do this before but didn’t stick to the resolve)?”
This thought felt very good. So that’s what I’m doing.
When my thoughts turn to why Tim hasn’t won yet, I can feel the shift in my energy. My new project (which I think I’m going to chew on even more than my old problem) is to turn it back to finding a reason to feel good.
