The Secret Is Wags

The lecture was supposed to be about beachcombing, which is one of my passions.

Tim and I joined our friends, Kathy and Lyn, for a talk given by Alan, a man who knows all about the critters and flotsam and jetsam that land on our beaches. I settled in, all ready to hear about glass floats and shells.

Alan starts talking about a novel, The Highest Tide, by Jim Lynch. One of the characters in the book, he said, was based on him. He went on to say that the book, Lynch’s first novel, sold over a million copies and is now being turned into a movie.

I started feeling very, very pissy.

I’m pretty attuned to my emotional guidance system.

(The emotional guidance system, if you don’t know the term, is what Abraham-Hicks calls your emotions. Your emotions are the way you know whether you are in alignment with your nonphysical self, your inner self, or what some call your higher self.  When you feel good, you’re aligned. When you don’t, you aren’t.)

I know when I’m feeling good, and I’m immediately aware of when I start feeling bad. I’m also getting very good at finding the thought that made me feel bad.

So when I started feeling pissy at the lecture, I immediately knew what I was thinking: Why haven’t I had success like that with my books? I am so ANGRY that that kind of success is possible and it hasn’t found me yet. I don’t even have an agent anymore. My first book should have done better. Etc, etc.

What I was feeling was the relative position of where I was compared with where my nonphysical self is.

My nonphysical self is aligned with me being a hugely successful author. My nonphysical self has become the vibrational equivalent of a bestselling author with a million sales.

I was feeling pissy because my thoughts were light years (in terms of vibration) from what my nonphysical self knew to be true and had become.

When I feel pissy about my writing, it feels really, really, really, really (are you getting this?) BAD.

Why?

Because I really, really, really, really want to be a bestselling author with over a million books sold. I’ve wanted it for a very long time.

This means that my energy has been flowing in that direction for a long time. That flow is powerful and fast.

When I have thoughts that are contrary to what I want, the contrast between what I want and what I think I can have is what makes me feel so miserable.

It helps me to be aware of this.

I didn’t clean up my thoughts last night (I was having too much fun feeling pissy—at least it wasn’t frustration and despair—it was anger, which is higher on the emotional scale).

But I cleaned them up today. Tim helped me with that.

A couple days ago, I got my weekly update on YA placements to editors. It included the announcement of a $1,000,000 deal for a debut YA series. When I saw that, I got really, really pissy.

Do you see a pattern here?

Today, Tim pointed out that hearing about great success for debut books twice in a few days could be an indicator that my own coming success as a debut YA author (I’ve had an adult novel published but not YA).

I tried out that thought.

Yeah, that felt really good.

It is odd to hear about that kind of success (it’s rare) twice in a few days. Maybe this is the universe telling me I’m heading toward it.

Of course, I can head toward it if I think more thoughts that feel good.

So I’m moving from pissy to hopeful.

Hopeful isn’t the exuberant expectation I need to fully line up with the success I want. But it’s an improvement.

And I’m going to keep looking for better feeling thoughts about this.

What about you? Are you listening to your emotional guidance system?

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